I went to the gym last night with one of my friends and we both kicked our butts doing lower body workouts. I'm so exhausted today! Which, btw, I love that feeling! :D I'm just terrified to walk down the stairs (I live on the 2nd floor). Haha!
Anyway, I wanted to update quickly and tell everyone that my weight is steady (boo!) and I haven't lost anything for um... 2 weeks. :'( Oh well, that's ok, just got to try something different, right?
I've been slacking on training for my run (3 miles in 29.5 mins max) and I could tell last night. I hardly did 10 minutes without wanting to cry. I seriously hate my body right now. AAAHHHH!!!!!
My back had been starting to hurt again, which wasn't fun - at - all! But oddly enough the lower body workout (abs, buns, and thighs) really helped and my back isn't hurting today. Who knows, maybe I'm not noticing it due to all the other places hurting on my body. My legs feel like they weigh 600lbs! But after a long day at work today I plan to go again even if it's for half an hour. I've noticed that if I go to the gym at 8:00pm or later there's less people there, which honestly I like because I HATE with a PASSION people watching me work out. I'm not a TV show. Go away! :P Mostly it's the guys. Ugh! Girls all try to hide.
I did lunges again, this time just floor lunges across the gym. It totally worked and I feel 10 million times better about myself. I thought I was going to end up crumpled on the floor crying but I didn't. Char pushed me to do it (she's a great friend/personal trainer wannabe). I'm bringing a note book to work with me today so that I can write down every exercise we've been doing and be able to keep track of it and how much I do.
Food has been a struggle for me. Why? Well, I'm not eating. WHAT?! Who doesn't love food? Believe me, I love food. Finances have been tight and instead of eating 3 meals a day I'm basically only eating 1. :'( Now who can tell me what the body does to that 1 meal? Anyone? IT HOLDS ON TO EVERYTHING! Don't worry, I've arranged some things to where I will be able to buy some food soon. Pay days are on the 10th and 25th. Bill are currently out weighing everything and sucking me dry. The price of living... ugh... Honestly, I wont lie, that's one reason I want to get into the military. The income.
I had a dream last night that I was walking in a parade with a bunch of females who were in the Navy. It was kinda cool but odd at the same time. I wasn't in the Navy and I wasn't wearing the same uniform as them, but they all welcomed me and asked me to walk with them.
I can do this! I can do anything! I just need to be accountable for myself and give no excuses.
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Thursday, August 19, 2010
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Motivation
We all need some kind of motivation to get our acts together and lose the weight we've been saying we're going to lose. For me, I have more than one. Yeah, joining the military is one of them. Have I picked a branch? I've narrowed down but I'm still undecided. Why? Because I'm keeping my goal small. I have 60lbs total I want to lose. 70lbs calls it great! But right now I'm trying to get back to the weight I was in high school. I have 55lbs to lose to get there. At the time I started losing weight I was 16 years old. I was also 205lbs. The biggest I'd ever been. There was a lady in my neighborhood who introduced me to the Slim-Fast diet. I lost 30lbs doing it my own way. No snacks during the day just a shake for breakfast, another for lunch, and a Lean Cuisine for dinner. I plateaued after losing the 30lbs. I kept at that weight for 2 years and then started gaining it all back when I went to college. After college I served a mission for my church and gained 25lbs more! Ugh! :(
So here I am. The desire to get back into fighting shape has been here for a while. But it wasn't until this year I had a bigger desire to do it. I signed up for a gym membership - I will not promote them because I disapprove of their ethics, I found some gym buddies, and I started going. I've even got a man I want to see come the end of this year so getting to where I want to be is even more of a motivational pull. ;) haha!
But one strong bit of motivation would have to be my desire to be happy with me. I love who I am, but I want to be better. Taking care of myself makes me happy. Knowing I can kick someone's butt makes me happy! haha! :D I want to feel secure with my strength. I don't want to be out there anymore thinking "I can't do that because I'm weak" or "I can't wear that because my hips will look way too big."... etc. I'm not going to be that kind of girl who goes out and buys a size of clothing I'd like to fit in when I'm back in shape. For me, that will never work. I'll see that size every day - in my face - and think I'm not there yet. I want to kick my butt, feel good, and not worry about sizes or numbers. I want to be healthy.
But back to keeping goals small. It's smart to have goals and break them down into pieces. For me the military is the ultimate goal. But lets break that down one step. I have to lose the weight required of me - I'm 66" tall - in order to be accepted. How do I lose the weight? Work out and eat healthy. As Doctor Laura says it "eat less and move more." Well for me it's not exactly eat less, I'm not eating enough. I need to eat ALL my meals and move more. I work full time Monday through Friday. When I get home I usually would be so exhausted I'd just plop down and not move until the next morning. LOL! So lets break this down even smaller. When do I start doing this? NOW! Not "Monday, 'cause it's Thursday and it'd be good to start out on the first of the week." NO!!! Do it NOW! You have the desire to do it, do it now! Don't wait! That's one HUGE mistake. Your body will tell you when you're in the mood to do anything. Your mind is the one that tricks you out of doing it. And that right there is another post for another day. ;) Yes, I was a psychology major at one point in my schooling... Anyway. So right now my goals are smaller but we can still break them down. Working out and eating healthy is an every day thing. My life needs to become scheduled. It can no longer be a totally "fly at the whim" schedule. I mean, really there is still the option to hang out with friends. The gym at the very least, an hour. Not hard at all. Even going on a fun bike ride can become an enjoyable past time with friends. And the more you go you'll find the more you'll enjoy being active. Eating healthier starts when you go shopping. We'll talk about shopping lists later. ;) And don't worry, I wont make you buy foods that taste like crap. Cause well, I don't enjoy eating crap either.
My goals are marked. Are yours? Are you ready?! LETS DO THIS THING!!!
STATS:
Workout: Quick Walk
Time: 1hr
Distance: 3 miles
So here I am. The desire to get back into fighting shape has been here for a while. But it wasn't until this year I had a bigger desire to do it. I signed up for a gym membership - I will not promote them because I disapprove of their ethics, I found some gym buddies, and I started going. I've even got a man I want to see come the end of this year so getting to where I want to be is even more of a motivational pull. ;) haha!
But one strong bit of motivation would have to be my desire to be happy with me. I love who I am, but I want to be better. Taking care of myself makes me happy. Knowing I can kick someone's butt makes me happy! haha! :D I want to feel secure with my strength. I don't want to be out there anymore thinking "I can't do that because I'm weak" or "I can't wear that because my hips will look way too big."... etc. I'm not going to be that kind of girl who goes out and buys a size of clothing I'd like to fit in when I'm back in shape. For me, that will never work. I'll see that size every day - in my face - and think I'm not there yet. I want to kick my butt, feel good, and not worry about sizes or numbers. I want to be healthy.
But back to keeping goals small. It's smart to have goals and break them down into pieces. For me the military is the ultimate goal. But lets break that down one step. I have to lose the weight required of me - I'm 66" tall - in order to be accepted. How do I lose the weight? Work out and eat healthy. As Doctor Laura says it "eat less and move more." Well for me it's not exactly eat less, I'm not eating enough. I need to eat ALL my meals and move more. I work full time Monday through Friday. When I get home I usually would be so exhausted I'd just plop down and not move until the next morning. LOL! So lets break this down even smaller. When do I start doing this? NOW! Not "Monday, 'cause it's Thursday and it'd be good to start out on the first of the week." NO!!! Do it NOW! You have the desire to do it, do it now! Don't wait! That's one HUGE mistake. Your body will tell you when you're in the mood to do anything. Your mind is the one that tricks you out of doing it. And that right there is another post for another day. ;) Yes, I was a psychology major at one point in my schooling... Anyway. So right now my goals are smaller but we can still break them down. Working out and eating healthy is an every day thing. My life needs to become scheduled. It can no longer be a totally "fly at the whim" schedule. I mean, really there is still the option to hang out with friends. The gym at the very least, an hour. Not hard at all. Even going on a fun bike ride can become an enjoyable past time with friends. And the more you go you'll find the more you'll enjoy being active. Eating healthier starts when you go shopping. We'll talk about shopping lists later. ;) And don't worry, I wont make you buy foods that taste like crap. Cause well, I don't enjoy eating crap either.
My goals are marked. Are yours? Are you ready?! LETS DO THIS THING!!!
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