Lower Body

I went to the gym last night with one of my friends and we both kicked our butts doing lower body workouts. I'm so exhausted today! Which, btw, I love that feeling! :D I'm just terrified to walk down the stairs (I live on the 2nd floor). Haha!

Anyway, I wanted to update quickly and tell everyone that my weight is steady (boo!) and I haven't lost anything for um... 2 weeks. :'( Oh well, that's ok, just got to try something different, right?
I've been slacking on training for my run (3 miles in 29.5 mins max) and I could tell last night. I hardly did 10 minutes without wanting to cry. I seriously hate my body right now. AAAHHHH!!!!!

My back had been starting to hurt again, which wasn't fun - at - all! But oddly enough the lower body workout (abs, buns, and thighs) really helped and my back isn't hurting today. Who knows, maybe I'm not noticing it due to all the other places hurting on my body. My legs feel like they weigh 600lbs! But after a long day at work today I plan to go again even if it's for half an hour. I've noticed that if I go to the gym at 8:00pm or later there's less people there, which honestly I like because I HATE with a PASSION people watching me work out. I'm not a TV show. Go away! :P Mostly it's the guys. Ugh! Girls all try to hide.

I did lunges again, this time just floor lunges across the gym. It totally worked and I feel 10 million times better about myself. I thought I was going to end up crumpled on the floor crying but I didn't. Char pushed me to do it (she's a great friend/personal trainer wannabe). I'm bringing a note book to work with me today so that I can write down every exercise we've been doing and be able to keep track of it and how much I do.

Food has been a struggle for me. Why? Well, I'm not eating. WHAT?! Who doesn't love food? Believe me, I love food. Finances have been tight and instead of eating 3 meals a day I'm basically only eating 1. :'( Now who can tell me what the body does to that 1 meal? Anyone? IT HOLDS ON TO EVERYTHING! Don't worry, I've arranged some things to where I will be able to buy some food soon. Pay days are on the 10th and 25th. Bill are currently out weighing everything and sucking me dry. The price of living... ugh... Honestly, I wont lie, that's one reason I want to get into the military. The income.

I had a dream last night that I was walking in a parade with a bunch of females who were in the Navy. It was kinda cool but odd at the same time. I wasn't in the Navy and I wasn't wearing the same uniform as them, but they all welcomed me and asked me to walk with them.

I can do this! I can do anything! I just need to be accountable for myself and give no excuses.